Before each and every meditation session, I recite Taoist scriptures for a few minutes and then proceed to my meditation. It’s not a necessary thing, but I do it because I’m training as a Taoist priest, and I feel I need some sort of “ritual” since I’m a non-monastic monk.
But anyway, because I’ve been practicing a form of neigong that’s very, very similar to zuowang (Taoist meditation – sitting/forgetting), it’s hard to not get into a state where I’m cultivating qi. But again, interestingly enough, I not only cultivate qi, but I’m also experiencing that sense of oneness with the Tao/Universe.
But one thing I’m noticing, and it’s weird. I’m getting headaches and really, really loud high pitched tinnitus, sometimes during the session and many times afterwards. Noises seem to feel louder than usual, so loud that my nervous system rattles when I hear them. My sinuses even clear up during meditation. I also get that sensation that the entire universe is operating on a certain frequency (vibration) and that frequency is reverberating throughout my body during and a little bit after the session too. And I get chills. Not like “cold” chills, but tingly chills. I’m also experiencing plenty of fatigue. It kinda sucks because I need to be energetic for my patients. I mean I eat well, try to sleep well, exercise and drink a lot of water. So really, the only thing I can attribute these symptoms to is the meditations I’m doing.
Some online sources say that these symptoms are signs of “clearing” or “purging” in my body and preparing myself for higher frequency absorption. Whatever that means. Actually I know what it means, it means that my mind and my body are reaching higher states of awareness and consciousness (I hate those words just like I hate the word “suchness” but they all still make sense. I think I hate them because new-agey people use them so often, and a super cheesy way too), and that my body is reacting to it.
To be honest, I don’t really care about reaching a higher state of consciousness or vibrational state or whatever. I just want to be at peace between myself and society, and help people heal. But if this is what’s happening to my body, then so be it. As long as that in the end I can help others, then it’s all groovy.