Today’s 1-hr neigong sitting was monumentally difficult. Although I felt the white light vibrations grow from within and seep into me from without, I was a bit too attached to my monkey ass mind. But it was my first 1-hr sitting since my qigong workshop a few weeks ago, so I wasn’t so hard on myself. Actually, I’ve grown to rarely be hard on myself. In cultivation practice just like anything else, you’ll always have “good” days and “bad” days. Continue reading
“Solitude is a hard-won ally, faithful and patient.” – Henry Rollins
What a commodity. It’s refreshing and recuperating. Rejuvenating and reenergizing. It’s what keeps me sane. Continue reading
Last weekend I was down in Springfield, Missouri for another 4-day workshop with my Qigong master. It’s funny, since he hates large cities (ie Chicago), it’s always quite an excursion to go see him. He’s either a 4 hour drive to Terre Haute, Indiana, or a 9 hour drive to Springfield, Missouri. The last time I saw him, I had to take an airline to South Carolina. But the workshops are always enlightening, and I always learn something new about healing, energetics, and myself.
Mostly, I learn about myself.
This time around, this Qigong workshop taught me a lot about the energetics of emotional pain and heartache. Continue reading
If you haven’t noticed, there’s an additional link on this blog called “Diary of a Lost Planet.” It’s a collection of short scribbles from my personal journals starting from 1995 till now.
Much of my offline journals are about me dealing with heartache, loneliness, and anger starting from when I was a wee little 21 year old “kid.” I was dealing with so much shit during those days that I took to writing to sort it all out since I didn’t have any friends whom I could really turn to. Continue reading